Why I have no money to pay my rent today and what you can learn from it.(nextbigme.com)

over 5 years ago from Jimmy Koli, Associate Creative Director

  • Thomas Michael SemmlerThomas Michael Semmler, over 5 years ago

    Well different from most people here, I actually know what you are talking about and I know the exact situation you are in. Congrats to you. But don't make the mistake of turning your sight outwards, you need to keep an open eye on the things that are happening inside of you. That is what most people lack, insight. Situations like this unveil themselves to be opportunities to learn the importance of insight.

    That being said, you have too many goals. Most of those goals are also external goals, not a version of yourself you aspire to become. Though that is not correct either - you describe a plan that will in your mindset turn you into the person that you want to become, but why do you want to become this person? Because you know from insight that this is true? Or because the idea of getting up at 04:50 am, because you heard it in a podcast somewhere or read it in a tim ferris book? If that is the case, you cannot reach the goal, because you lack internal motivation. Do the things you cannot deny you wanna be doing, that is not playing CS, because you know that this is a distraction, a compensation of something you are currently missing in your life. Don't decorate your externally communicated version of yourself with trinkets like meditation, green tea, getting up early, coconut oil, protein shakes, cacao nibs, polyphasic sleep patterns, white noise playlists, etc. All of those things can be great, but they are useless if you don't do it for yourself but for the version of yourself that you wanna communicate to other people.

    Don't make routines. Routines "happen". As a rule of thumb, if you have to locate sources of energy to make something stick, it is probably not the right thing for you. Habits will form naturally, if there is a reason for it. If going to the gym or waking up at 5am would have been the solution to all your problems, you would have done it already. Your plans are amazing and they clearly show your willingness to transform chaos into order, but from what I have seen all of it is digital, or most of it. Every plan you make, every mindmap, every goal - all of it needs to be physically manifested, even if it is just a sheet of paper that lives on your wall.

    Don't become Tim Ferris, become yourself. Start writing, daily. If you don't know what is happening in your life? Start to write, not digitally. Good luck.

    11 points